OK OK OK, it has been QUITE a long time since I have blogged, mostly because I felt so guilty about falling off the wagon and keeping up with it. So, without further adieu, I am officially back at it, and am going to make a point to make time in my life to do so.
A lot of changes have happened since I last posted, and even if no one reads this, or cares, I want to document the events in my life for myself at least! Traditionally I hate making New Years resolutions, because I am always let down when I don't follow through with them and give up. So I have made it a resolution to not make them! Well, my non-resolutions are:
1. To blog on a consistent basis
2. Maintain healthy eating and track everything I consume.
3. Say "yes" to more things, even if they seem scary.
4. Join a crossfit gym nearby to get my ass back in shape, and PUSH myself!
5. Stop watching so much TV, and get outside in this beautiful San Diego weather and take advantage of it!
Yes I know those goals may seem a little too steep to maintain all year, but that isn't my intention. I want those goals to be my new LIFE goals. I was scared to put it out there that these are my goals, mostly because of the scrutiny that comes along with it when other people know you are trying to achieve these things. I feel like people always are rooting for you to fail, and NOT reach your goals, so it is scary to put it in writing. THAT is why I have waited until Feb 2 to start blogging and post them, out of fear. But guess what? I am not scared anymore. If people are rooting for me to fail, that's fine, because THIS TIME I WILL PROVE YOU WRONG. And myself! The reason I have failed before is because I have never truly believed in myself. It's a self-fulfilling prophecy that I will not achieve a goal, and then I don't.
Robert and I needed to get our eating and drinking habits under control for a couple weeks before we REALLY started adding in exercise. It was pretty difficult to train our bodies to eat less, and choose healthy options. Also, a difficult thing for us is that we would not eat for hours and hours, and then be so hungry that we would eat way too much and over indulge. Now our bodies are finally starting to get used to eating continuously throughout the day, but choosing the right things to do so. We are tracking everything we eat, and holding ourselves accountable. An enjoyable activity we have now is cooking with and for one another, and discussing how to make our favorite dishes slimmed down, or what new creations we can come up with. Gone are the days that we feel the need to constantly be going to Happy Hour or out to eat. I want to change my lifestyle, and be active with my husband. When we eventually have children I don't want them sitting on the couch watching TV all the time and eating junk food constantly. But if that is what Robert and I are doing, how would I expect them not to?
SO...with all that being said, we joined a new CrossFit gym 2 weeks ago, called Crossfit Humanity, here in San Diego. The past 2 weeks that we have gone are the first ones for the gym too. I know the owner through the mom I nanny for, and he's an awesome guy named Phil. The box isn't quite set up all the way yet, but it is definitely ready enough to get your ASS kicked! And we have been these past 2 weeks. I can honestly say that I have gone to workouts more consistently in the past 2 weeks than I have in over 2 years. 2 years ago is when we started CrossFit in Folsom, at Folsom City CrossFit. I am embarrassed to say that I have done CrossFit in the past, because by looking at me now, no one would be able to tell. Our close friends owned FCCF when we joined, and to be honest, I didn't go into the situation whole-heartedly. I wanted to join because our friends did it, not because I wanted to change my life! NOW I want to do it for ME, and am going at it with everything I have. I also want to apologize for getting so offended and defensive when I would be confronted at FCCF. It was hard to take constructive criticism from friends, and I would take it personally. Now I realize I can only improve, and need these suggestions to better myself, and improve in CrossFit. I have also learned to HAVE AN OPEN MIND! Try new things, listen to what people have to say, and do it! If you don't like it after giving it your all, then don't, but keep your opinion to yourself!
I am so happy that Robert and I are finally REALLY deciding to make long-term changes in our lives, and that I have him to go on this journey with. When we met, we shared the similar interests of drinking excessively and eating excessively. Now, we can grow together even more by changing our interests and trying new things! Don't get me wrong, I still LOVE me some beer and pizza, and I don't think that will ever change. AND THAT IS OK! I just know now that those things CAN still be enjoyed, for special occassions, and if I have earned them by eating good all week and working out. This all may sound like common knowledge to you all, and I have heard it all a million times too. But to actually BELIEVE that this is actually going to happen is a first for me, and I am so excited. We have a loonnngg road ahead, but I can't wait to go down it. I am sick of the excuses holding me back, and refuse to let them any longer.
Well, after that deep post about my personal stuggles in life, LETS GO NINERS in the Super Bowl tomorrow. I wish we were going to be in Sacramento with all of our friends and family to watch the game as usual, but cheers to new beginnings! Rob is doing awesome in law school & kicked ass his first semester at USD! (not that I expected anything less) I am happily nannying for the same family, and life is good! I miss everyone back home, and hope you all find time to come visit us soon, or we'll see you next time we're up there! LOVE YOU ALL! And thanks for reading this long rant about me :)
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